kind of pissed

i'm kind of pissed at one of my girlfriend's. i had been trying to get a hold of her since i got back from vacation, which was around the end of july, but a lot of personal stuff had been happening to her every week. granted it's not really her fault, but then when i tried week after week, texting, calling, and fb msging her about stuff, she's sooo laggy about response or doesn't even reply that it makes me feel... well quite honestly, pissed. like what the hell. i don't care if you're busy. EVERYBODY's busy! being "busy" is an excuse, doesn't mean anything, neglible in life b/c if you really wanted to hang out you'd actually shuffle the so-called importance of your life to fit me in.

i. obviously do not count as part of that priority list. i really should not care b/c fine, whatever, but honestly... i'm kind of pissed more that she doesn't seem to care. i think that is what bothers me the most.

so now we're chatting and trying figure out a date, she's free for the next 4 days, so i chose thursday, oh but lo and behold she might be busy as she might have to go celebrate someone's engagement... an engagement she doesn't even feel strongly about and she couldn't even reply back to me (on facebook which i know she has access and doesn't have stupid phone problems) about if she was free this weekend to even spend some time with me for my birthday.

is it too much to ask key pl in my life to spend a little time to be with me on my birthday? i turned 25. supposedly, that's suppose to be a big deal. apparently not. it just means i'm half way from being young and stupid to supposedly wiser and accomplished. so, i guess that means i'm still young and stupid with far reaching hopes of being accomplished and smart.

UPDATE: okay so ti's a day later since the above post and actually i did calm down after 30 mins and it was fine... but boy was i ever livid!!