how small is too small?

so, now that my resolution is to think more platonically, maybe i should focus my efforts on the asian who i think is interested in me.

so i ask you. if you went from ... maximum ... to now what one might guess as regular or maybe, and not by fault of him, but fault of genetics and race, even slightly smaller than regular... not that i can confirm this AT ALL, but it's just by my estimate that it could quite be a downgrade.

i know. that is AWFUL for me to say, but i like IT and i like it good. so with this, i've resolved to get to know the personality so ANYTHING else or little else, can be overlooked. it has to be. i can't be THAT shallow. but i guess i really am!?

i think i should go to sleep. maybe my crazy thoughts will disappear into weird dreams instead.

still feeling masochistic and sad, but i'm sure, i have to, get over this.