ok, so the last post was quite bitter and i don't want it to seem like i'm not happy now b/c it's far from it. so this post is dedicated to the man in my life now. emphasis on MAN. he's... older, but is out going, likes to have fun, can hold a conversation, is smart, is adventurous, is kind, is not the complete over the top openly affectionate type... so i've learned to rein it in, but whilst he's on vacation, he has shown or said, how he feels about me and i feel confident, that though it's not proclaimed to the world, it has been shown to his friends, whom he considers his family, that i am someone he is.. seeing? dating? it hasn't been defined, but to define it now w/ him, to have that conversation almost seems contrite, not necessary... i feel i know where i am w/ him, so that's good and after learning from the last relationship, i AM a bit more cautious w/ my feelings, but nonetheless i can barely contain my emotions sometimes. this is the longest run on sentance, but i seem to be writing from some part of me that feels emotionally stronger than i was 4 months ago. call it maturity? no... but maybe finally realizing what's actually reality and what makes me really happy and content.
anyway, getting preachy. but ya i am happy. he seems pretty awesome. i throw the 'seems' b/c i don't want to jinx what i may think is true? i'm over-analyzing? ya i know haha
it's weird. we've spent more time apart than we have together. i guess that's what happens when you meet someone during the peak holiday season? despite it all, we already have plans to get away together for my bday weekend which i'm looking forward to. 6 more days until he is home. :o)
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