But am thinking there's no point b/c it won't do anything other than give me some sense of satisfaction of getting it all off my chest. But that's why there's my blog!
#1 - I know you've been busy, but if you still want to be friends w/ me you're gonna have to make some effort, schedule a time to meet up. B/c if I keep asking every time and keep getting rejected (for a legit reason) then it'll feed my insecurities of not being wanted...
#2 - I don't want to become one of your little asians in your list of "possibles." I would hope I hold greater significance than those randoms.
#3 - was it all a lie? All that affection you bestowed on me, was it a lit, were you faking it? If you didn't feel romantic feelings then what the heck was that? I guess I'm baffled and more...confused and hurt by that.
#4 - I wish you saw the value in me b/c you missed out. I wish you were more mature to appreciate it. I wish...things were different.
#5 - I don't care if you say you never wanted to hurt me or that telling me a month ago abt how you were feeling should've been a warning, that should alleviate the pain. Well it doesn't. And yes you did hurt me. Greatly. You left me confused and lost. You hurt me like I had been punched in the gut and left to die. So I hope you have a happy life and evetually find what you're looking for b/c apparently what I am was not.
Fml
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