drunk

at work.
well.. not drunk. 2 glasses of wine. good enough. i'm feeling womanly... you know.. WOMANly...
:(

i got scared

Reasons for not picking up their mobile

They're probably having sex.

Point blank.

Epiphany

I don't want to be the girl who gives up the kidney for someone who doesn't choose me ala gray's anatomy episode 6.

Beep beep

Are you honking b/c you are pissed @ the grid lock traffic post canucks AND lions game or are you honking at the canucks pwnin' the oilers?

am not going to lie

Not to sound racist or anything... But am a little nervous of the big black, oversize, baggy clothes, bling bling wearing guys that just walked by...

I don't understand

Why do ppl have to make insignificant, nonsensical comments on photos. Especially comments where I'm not even sure on how to reply... Like honestly, what do you even mean?!

Bitter and a little jealous

Ok, maybe lots jealous when seeing people I know living a life that can only happen in television reality, but it's not tv b/c it's happening right now. They're living a creatively charged life surrounded by other creative and innovative, fun people, in a city that supports all this.

Jealous when seeing the other doing 'freakishly' well with their chosen significant other. Feel slightly not proud of who I am. To be the secondary, the convenience on two continents, may be a little too much for me.

I should close the flickr page.

Currently on repeat: concerning the ufo sighting... By sufjan stevens

I.B.S.

So after spending an evening doubled over in abdominal pain and stomach bloating (mhhh I'm so hawt) I decided to go see my doctor the next day. Usually, when I get gassy or bloated (oh so sexy), my stomach hurts, but I can tough it out. Not last night though, horrible. I couldn't even sit down.
So this morning, I find out it's NOT my appendix (yay), but instead I have a 'nervous stomach' aka IBS aka irritable bowel syndrome...

Mhhhhh!! If that doesn't attract the fellas what will?!

So basically, I have to put these drops into my water 3x a day to relieve the cramping...
20 drops! For 3 monthes! And these drops aren't flavorless, oh no, they've got flava... AND I have to take metamucil caps all the time.

I am so desirable right now, take me.

hard day at work

i just spent 45 mins with my co-workers fleshing out an extremely and important complex list...

a list of who in our office resembles which character from the office (US version). we even used IMDB and lots of brain power... my head hurts.

it feels good to actually work! thumbs up.

playlist of the moment

say it to me now - glen hansard (once soundtrack)
que rico el mambo - damasco perez prado (motorcycle diaries soundtrack)

sad and achy. and then shimmy like no one's business.

Hearts you

For making my annoying morning into something hilarious.

Me - "-i'll look at that paul anderson video when I get to a computer..."

Alex - "please do. I'd go gay for him. That's how much I admire him"

Hahhahahha i heart you xoxo

Pet peeves

Ppl who can't use their core muscles and their own seat to push themselves out of their airplane seat and have to pull on my head rest to get up.

No replies on text or email. Simply rude.

Being the one in most of my friendships to make the initiated effort to do hang out.

Inconsiderate girls on the bus with voices that range in the annoyingly high pitch who talk about the insignificant events of their mundane tragic life, like child birth. Shut the fuck up... I think everybody on the bus knows half of your pathetic life by now and good god it's not even 830am.

I'm not a morning person.

Inside bus voice please

It's bloody 8am... Please use your inside, less annoying, low pitch voice before I take your bag and hit you in the head to shut the hell up... It's what sms is for. To talk to your neighbor via computerized text. Take advantage of such technology.

Urgh

I wish more places served wine for lunch. No, I wish wine was a more socially accepted choice of beverage with lunch. Not to say I was a euro socialite who dined on wine and cheese at lunch, but I know it was an option while I was there. Nobody would think twice about it.

Urgh.

Just urgh. Good god this must be pms, why I feel so negative. It's exhausting feeling this scrooge-like. Then again it's exhausting trying to be all happy too. So I'm caught in limbo...Having an existence can be tiring too.
Silently screaming for release...

All those men out there who blame our female erratic, irrational behavior on pms, you couldn't be more right. Let me tack a gold star to your forhead.

F u

You know what pisses me off? When ppl don't sms me back when I pointedly ask them a question. I get your busy, but as am I which is why I sms to confirm plans so I'm not planning holes in my non-existent social life.

Holy pony, I am feeling antagonistic right now... I blame pms. And perhaps I may be feeling under the weather.

On the flip side I am super happy I can blog via mobile. Brilliant.

Failure

Nothing like feeling like a total failure than coming out of a second, final interview with an awkward pit in my stomach.

I am an utter failure. Can I go back to europe where I felt whole?

Being early gets you nowhere

As I tried to be early @ the bus stop, like 2 buses earlier, in hopes of trying to be @ work at a decent time. Instead, the bus was late, the 2nd was completely full, to make up for the full one, and now I'm standing outside freezing my bum off in 6 degrees celcius weather, with tar fumes wafting towards me...

I know how I'm going to die

By tar poisoning. Construction going on across the street where they're digging up the road and then it gets funneled into a big truck. All that road work/ tar fumes are wafting ominously close to where we're all standing...

are we so obvious?

so i never thought my canadian or north american was so apparent until alex pointed out to me, during our trip, how funny the word "awesome" is.

go away somewhere, somewhere, where people speak english and speak it with a different accent and with different slang... then come home and all of a sudden, one day, you'll hear 3 awesomes within the hour and it sounds so... ahhhh-some.

i'm not dissing it, not calling it pony, just... huh, how funny, how obvious we can sound. how.. ahhh-some.

satie on repeat

teaser leaves me lacking

UP.

i saw this on shirl's blog.

i need more for it to tease me. right now it just leaves me going what...?

it's raining

I'm in a mood.

Changing of seasons by ane brun.

He falls asleep on her chest
the best sleep he´d ever met
nevertheless he dreams of some stranger´s caress
so he awakes and he knows
maybe someone else is supposed
to meet his hazy anticipating eyes

he draws the curtains aside
unfolding the first morning light
he glances at his disenchanted life

restlessness is me, you see
it´s hard to be safe
it´s difficult to be happy

it´s the changing of the seasons
he says ”I need them”
I guess I’m too Scandinavian
the relief of spring
intoxication of summer rain
the clearness of fall
how winter makes me reconsider it all

restlessness is me, you see
it´s hard to be safe
it´s difficult to be happy

and then she awakes
reaches for the embrace
he decides not
to worry about seasons again

Suffocating

Bus is full, it's piss pouring rain outside, and the windows are foggy.

I'm silently screaming "crack a window before I pass out from CO2 poisoning!!"

I think HTC phone guy, beside me, heard my silent pleas for help as he just cracked a window open.

I'm doing a little dance on the inside.

listen to these in sequence

ecstasy.

kings of leon - revelry
gustavo santaolalla (motorcycle diaries) - aperture
pj harvey - the devil
kings of leon - closer

ipod shuffle is on a roll, today...

i will always think of you when i listen to this song

leave.

b/c you were yelling out 'leave' in bed when you were listening to this... like a crazy person, your hair was sticking up everywhere. cracks me up wherever i am, whenever i hear this...

why you gotta be such a hater

you're not even freakin' british. don't be a hater. just enjoy the photos.

gangly uncoordinated boys

piss me off, especially when i have to play tennis with them. makes me want to beat you with my racquet for how much you sissy-hit the ball.

Reality bites

Point blank.

First day back to work since I've been home.

http://lambchop6.blogspot.com

No more being 2nd choice

Or the backup or the after thought or the one that's always there... No, from now on I've made a resolution to be nobody's convenient little sweet side. If you want me you make me ur number 1 choice...

Oh gawd I'm going to be single for years aren't I... Times are certainly looking tough indeed... Pony.

Hello again

Missed me? I've been away. http://lambchop6.blogspot.com

After 30+ hrs, cancelled and delayed flights, i finally made it home, but baggage-less. In a way I feel incomplete b/c all my souvenirs are in the bag so it's like a lot of memories are still scattered out there. At least I still have my photos to remind me what an amazing time I've had. Truly what made the trip great and so memorable is my dear friend Alex. He's one of the few people in this world who can sit with me and understand me, often times without me having to speak... That whole silent communication and understanding actually exists... Don't get me wrong, being absolutely retarded together was equally magnificent... Sigh paris je t'aime...