last 48 hrs

have been pretty life altering.

in a nutshell...

1 phone and 1 f2f interview on the same day for the same company.

am not on work leave anymore so i guess my countdown clock doesn't apply anymore... oh but how i do like it, it's so neat... oh right, not on work leave anymore, have been asked to stay WITH a 10% increase (cha-ching), plus other great bonuses... BUT albeit this is great i'm not scrambling or under a timeline anymore, this is not my career option so i'll still be job hunting post trip.

which brings me to next point, come check out lambchop's adventures, so i probably won't be posting in here for a few weeks...

oh back to work crazy, and THEN the company i had interviewed for called me saying they want a second interview post-trip

and THENNNN the BIG motherland company where i interviewed for ALL freakin' day long in SF said they will call me this morning for an 'update.' ya... i'm thinking the update is to say we love you, but we don't want to relocate and found someone local. i'm preparing myself for that.

okay chats later. must pack...

i heart this site

to chris, thanks for the discovery, well really thanks shirls, b/c i don't really know chris. yay for x degrees of separation.

Requirements

-some form of chivalry
-masculinity
-physically strong
-humorous
-sarcastic/witty
-emotionally available. Or how about just plain ol' available.

stalker

well not stalker, slightly stalkerish... see, this is what happens when i have too much time on my hands or have nothing to do. i end up googling, fb, and myspacing ppl on the internet... why? b/c i am nosey and have nothing better to do.

at least i've stepped back for a second to blog about the fact that maybe i've gone over the deep end...

An epic poem of sorts

Oh how tragedy has fallen
Upon my dark cloud
Be still my crushing heart
May tears stop flowing
May eyes stop prickling
Upon which I am bestowed
Oh mighty fortune
Of lady luck

I am sick. When I am sick, I play the tragic card b/c quite honestly, if u had liquid constantly leaking out of your eyes and nose, you'd feel quite like I do now.

Tragic. And terrible unattractive and troll-like.

Too much va-j-j

I'm at a comedy show right now and all 3 comedians are females. Go girl power, except it's one too many va-j-j jokes, I'm 2 seats over from the touchy feeling that I would never have, and I'm rapidly getting sick as I sit here... Well technically I'm sitting outside waiting until the good one is on.

3 weeks. I have 3 weeks to get over any internalized agony and to go back to being regular me where I am not longingly wishing that was me.

I don't know if it's the cold pill or wine or the combination of both, but I can't stop slide glancing and feel like it's my insides wrenching with envy.

I am in single land hell

My friend just got an apt (rent) with her bf, just hit the 1 year mark and they will be getting a kitten. Together.

Can I be rewarded for my single promiscuous behaviour with a new kitty, pls? And a cute bag to carry it in.

I hearts u

My dear friend, shirls who has my back in time of stupid boy distress mode.

Berry messenger is a wonderful msging interface @ times of self pity and distraught.

Torturing myself

Like little pangs in the heart as I watch her get to lean into him and kiss him sweetly on the lips, as I awkwardly turn my body away, continuing to wash dishes as that's the only thing I can do to distract myself.

I don't know why I torture myself this way, I need to find another thing to heart on.

Sadface :(

i think i found my new job

clown

need to get the hell out of town

b/c i have this many days left at work



and b/c work is total bullshit and runs on inefficiency.

Omg so you think you can dance...

The prima donna of figure skating, emmanual sandhu is on so you think you can dance.

And I think I just realized I am the only person around who is floored by this...

Sadface :(

Testing mobile blogging again

B/c I am a total loser and i find great entertainment in this.

Testing out mobile blogging

I hope this works so I can blog at will and document my internal struggles.

internally agonize

he - "well...what would you do if i proposed to her in 2 weeks..."

me - "take you out for a drink and congratulate you... and then internally agonize my pain, but all while still being your best bud, and never show you how internally agnoized i would be."

he - "would you be my best man?"

me - "i'd throw you the best bachelor party ever... "

he - "hah, isn't it sad the only person i can find for my best man is a 5'2 little chinese girl?... so what if it's not 2 weeks, what if it's in 2 yrs? what would you do?"

me - "i'd still be your best bud, take your out for a drink, but may internalize my agony a little less..."

someone's going to get hurt... and it's probably going to be me. but i can't stop.

drunk off my ass

while at work. why?
why not

also b/c i had another birthday lunch with yummy wine and chocolate lava cake. mhhhh lava cakeee... i'd drool but it would seem inappropriate at work... as inappropriate as being drunk at work... shhh must stay quiet at my seat lest ppl suspect...

4th screen

O M G i FINALLY looked up how to embed video in my blog and it was that freakin' simple?! EPITHANY!!

just got shiat on...

literally. i got pooped on by a bird.

"i heard it's good luck..." ya, b/c how else can one justify being shiat on other than it's "luck." i'm sorry, but do you know anybody who's had luck after being dumped with feces?!

i think it's punishment for me taking an extra hr during my lunch break to go shopping at aritzia.

you think you have problems?!

"...may create a mini-black hole that could tear the earth apart. "

it looks like we have bigger fish to fry...

replied back

i wrote back to my friend.

i can be a complete bitch and scathing, but i wasn't. i'm proud of myself, i held back and calmly explained that yes though i do accept your apologies, i am disappointed at your lack of total time management and disrespect. ... no. not in those words, but the idea of it... i hope i didn't burn a bridge. i seem to be good at those too.

web 2.0 whore

i am.

i am sitting here in underwear and a sports top, suppose to go shower as i just came back from tennis... it's been 2 hrs since i came back! what have i been doing? nothing but net, baby, nothing but net...

facebook has ruined me. and my hygiene.

bros before hos

apparently that is what my long time friend thought when she said she would go to my birthday dinner, yet never ended up going b/c she was in whistler with her bf for HIS birthday. gee that would've been nice to know, you wouldn't have made it or there would be a chance of you not coming, about a WEEK before the date NOT TWO HOURS before my actual dinner.

when i have to call your parents house, and you don't live at home anymore, to see if your still alive b/c you haven't returned my text, msgs, or phone call in a week, don't you feel some what irresponsible to friends?! or is it just me who thinks it's ridiculous to think my oldest friend would actually take the time to let me know she will come or leave whistler earlier.

is the sex that good with him that you can't tear yourself away and to be disrespectful to others?

note - i'm still debating whether or not i should be honest and say how i really feel or just sweep it under the carpet, as i usually do...

the big quarter of the century

no i didn't turn 25, i turned 24, but it might as well be the 'quarter of a century' old for me b/c really, am i going to live to 100? no. but i will live to 96! it's in the genes... good ol' grandma...

do i feel older? no. if anything i feel younger as time goes by. this seems to be the summer of experimentation of things i thought i would never do, but things others have done when they were in high school...

i feel like i'm going thru puberty. i hope my boobs get bigger and i get taller.

childhood memories and nostalgia

do you remember ice cream trucks? you know, those big boxy square vehicles that drives around your neighborhood, playing high pitch annoying, yet come hither, music that just screams, ice cream?

when's the last time you heard the sweet siren call of delicious, so bad for you, but who cares cause ur a kid, tune?

20 mins ago. i think i had a shock to the system when i heard the music and saw the truck. yet at the same time very sad b/c there were no kids around, so really it just looked like a sad white box playing out dated music that had no friends... :( sad face.

reach out

my lovely friend posted this on his desktop today. it's the feeling around the office...

birthdays blow

can't ppl just plan my birthday for me? b/c ppl are busy. rely only on thyself.

flying solo

It's monday on a finally beautiful day. I'm sitting in an empty theatre watching the sisterhood of the travelling pants 2. There are 7 females. I am the only non-pair.

What's better (or worse), watching a movie by myself or being the 3rd wheel of a couple?

EDIT: written on a monday at 4pm from mobile. NO PUBLISH BUTTON?!