of all places to get some meaningful perspective on life, i got it from the hills?! i was cleaning up my room with the latest episode of the hills playing on the background (that's right it's my soothing background noise?! i'm tragic...) and i hear the psychiatrist telling spencer that he and heidi have become so 'one' and tied to each other that they've tended to isolate themselves in their own little world, pushing everybody away (hint to all you ppl 'in love' you'll have no more friends!!!), but what perked my ears was hearing the pscyhiatrist say that they've become each other's security blanket which makes anything or anyone intrude on this bond feel like it's threatening their bond with each other. and that! my friend is how i feel about my own
besotted (and most of march and april's blogs were about besotted's angst and tragic demise to my heart, too many to hyperlink). that he's become this close security blanket where i've held control of it this entire time until recently when things have changed and gone back to reality, to normal ppl land... my security blanket is being threatened... or just shifting to something that is more emotionaly healthy, but i need to learn to recognize this truth. i need to learn to be on my own again, with no security blanket holding me up. ya... ok... tell my TEARS that! and... i'm not getting life advice from a 'psychiatrist' from THE HILLS?!?!?!?!
i miss the days of when i would just get advice from my historical romance novels. now i get it from new age pop 'celeb' mtv shows.
no wonder i'm a freak.